There are so many things I said I would never do.
I said I would never leave Maryland.
I said I would never live in apartment.
I said I would never have normal hair again.
I said I would never take my piercings out.
I said I would never build a business in person.
I said I would never get to be with a woman.
I said I would never get sober.
I said I would never, I said I would never, I said I would never....
You know the only reason we say that is out of fear right? Fear we won’t obtain, fear we won’t survive, fear we will fall down.
All I can tell you, is never let fear be the reason you would never... because there has not once been a time that I was brave and regretted it.
There is nothing different between me and you except that I am willing to take risks and look more stupid than you.
What did you say you would never do?
Change isn’t something that happens over night, it’s something that takes day by day. ✨🌎💡
I can’t tell you how many times it took me to want to put in the actual work to change. I knew I had to, but god why is it so hard to make the small steps? 🥺
I knew I needed to change, because I had turned to hate myself so much for everything I did, from over drinking when I said I wouldn’t, hating how I couldn’t hold myself accountable for my actions, ruining my relationships with friends and family due to my behaviors, and simply living my life anchored to feeling defeated constantly. I felt like I had not only let myself down, but everyone around me, including my dogs. 😭
It took me 4 different times to finally say enough was enough. And that I needed to do what it took to start building myself up, taking everything that I knew prior and throwing it out the window, and to start over fresh and with a clean slate. Even doing this, it took me 6 months to be finally accepting of the person in the mirror, and took me a year and a half to learn to love myself a little more each day and to keep giving myself grace. ✨🌎
Change didn’t happen over night, in fact I’m still slowly reaching my goals and visions of who I want to be. It wasn’t overnight that I changed my mindset to a growth mindset, and it wasn’t overnight of everything that I’ve learned throughout this time. ✨🌎📚
Change happens when you are ready to start taking the steps into learning to change. It’ll take months, years and maybe even decades, but the time frame doesn’t matter, what matters is what YOU have learned through that time and what YOU have put into your life. People will either support you or not, and that’s okay, find YOUR people who will love you reguardless and support your vision. Because like I said, change doesn’t happen overnight, and trust me it can be a lonely walk here and there, but when you find your people, it sure does make everything 100x better. 💕🥰✨🙌🏼🌎💌