This has been the MONDAYEST MONDAY ever.
My Monday was supposed to be a fresh week ahead.
My Monday was supposed to be a reset.
My Monday was supposed to be a productive & filled with positivity.
…but it’s not.
I woke up at 1:30ish am with extreme inflammation and itching from #skindisorder . I’ve been back and forth to the bathroom putting oils, butters, ointments, soaking in the bath to soothe the pain and taking antihistamines.
Which none seemed to help… Just frustrated me more. And the last thing I want to hear is someone else telling me what else I should try to treat my symptoms.
This is just a little #autoimmuneillness realness for every other woman suffering silently. It’s horrible to not be in control and in pain. I understand how you feel sis.
But we still can control how the day goes. So make that cup of your favorite herbal tea, get in your favorite pjs, take time for yourself (that job will be there), and snuggle up with the people and fur friends you love. We don’t have to conquer today.
It’s okay if your day didn’t go as planned. And it’s okay if you’re a ball of emotions today. Feel them, journal them and even cry them out if you need to.
But when you’re done…
Let’s find all the ways we can appreciate this moment, instead of being trapped by all the ways we can’t. We can do this sis.
In February 2020, I felt it! I felt something was off with my body. I noticed my skin was itchy but I passed it off to the dry Arizona air & heat. I had high anxiety & was experiencing extreme insomnia. I passed it off to “I was working hard for my dreams.”
In March 2020, the itching was constant and moving to other parts of my body. I had raised-red areas on folds of my skin. I was treating with OTC creams bc my primary care physician wasn’t taking appointments due to COVID.
In April 2020, The spots started to burn and I was noticing excessive dandruff in my scalp. I had enough and pleaded for a tele-med appointment with my primary care physician. I was diagnosed with a yeast infection and prescribed more creams and oral medication.
Between May 2020-June 2020, I went back and front with more appointments with the primary care physician, immediate care, and a physician assistant. At this point my hair was becoming brittle and breaking off. I could barely comb through it.
In July 2020, I seen a dermatologist. I was experiencing bald spots in the front of my hairline and the spots on my skin were growing and multiplying. I was given more creams and advised that blood work & a punch biopsy may be necessary if symptoms did not improve.
In August 2020, symptoms did not improve. I had extensive bloodwork & the punch biopsy done. Results showed no fungus, bacteria or anything else. The dermatologist took an educated guess that I was suffering from an autoimmune disorder and slapped Alopecia Areata due to stress on me.
In September 2020, I seen a naturopathic physician that believed I have leaky gut and placed me on several supplements and advised me to remove sugar and alcohol from my diet.
As I sit here writing this today, still no improvement but I am managing it. The symptoms are not worsening, thank God. And as I reflect on that timeline, I gotta say I am thankful for this journey. I know that sounds crazy but my hair loss has allowed me to be grateful for so much! My hair loss has allowed me to slow down. My hair loss has allowed me to understand what really matters. My hair loss has allowed me to (Check comments for the rest.)
11 months ago
So what happen when I took a two week break from IG?
At first it was hard to be away from y’all. I was so programmed to posting on my stories, responding to my DM’s, checking and responding back to my comments…
It was actually freeing to not have to do any of that!
And I was able to refocus on what mattered…
I started my journey on IG so I could motivate the next woman to give nutrition and exercise a chance, to encourage you to not be afraid to live the “healthy” lifestyle, and to share my notes on how to share your wellness journey and make an income from it.
But I had to go away because God wanted my attention. He wanted me to breathe. He wanted me to focus on me. He wanted me to heal. He wanted to teach me more lessons. He wanted to set a clearer picture to my purpose without distractions.
And while I was breaking, I also was made aware of some unhealthy habits I had too:
The stress of striving to post the perfect pic.
Comparing myself to others that are more successful to me.
Copying business strategies that work for other people but are not true to who I am.
So I’d say this break was well needed. Although I cant completely stop using social media bc it’s how I run my businesses and connect with you, it’s allowed me to put some boundaries in place and non-negotiables. But let me say, I am forever grateful that IG has connected me to YOU and given me your support in this whole journey.
And here’s what I want to say to you:
If you are following people that don’t bring you peace, growth, and motivation; hit the unfollow button.
If social media puts you in the comparison-itis rabbit hole, unfollow those trigger accounts, take a break, and/or set up time limits of your usage.
Know that the amount of likes, comments and views do not define your worth nor success. What God has for you is for YOU. And another person hitting the like button has nothing to do with what HE can do for you.