Rest easy my little warrior ❤️
I see you in your darkest hour, the frustration, pain and tiredness you feel. The longing to get up and move unaided, the brave face you wear when you see your friends playing football and cricket. The smile you show me when we rest inside while friends play in the sunshine.
I see you when you are drained from the hospital stays, the relentlessness of feeling fatigued and sick, when the doctors ask you how you are and you say ‘I’m good’ because you just want to go home. The cheeky jokes you have with the nurses, the walks around the ward as you continue to grow in confidence in your new normal.
I see you, the courage it takes to talk about your illness, to express how you feel, through the tears and frustration and some days just not knowing how to feel. Through covid, lockdowns, isolation, illness and treatments, your sole existence, your identity, has been rocked to the core. Sadness, missing your old life. Uncertainty over your new one.
I see you Ashton, brave, honest, loving, caring, happy, scared, determined, courageous, strong, frustrated, lonely, vulnerable, inspiring, incredible. There isn’t a person on the planet who hasn’t felt some or even all of those things Ashton, you are not alone.
You make me so proud to be your mum. Despite what you are going through, you never give up, you always find a reason to smile. You keep going, bringing so much love and joy to the people you meet. Because of you, I smile every single day. Your personality shines so brightly, it’s impossible not to smile around you. You remind me to live in the moment, be positive, live with humour and love. I see you Ashton, you light up my entire life, and I will be by your side always ❤️
Chemo will make you sleepy, tired and poorly, time to rest, let it take hold and help you heal ❤️ We see you Ashton, we’ve got you, every single step of the way xx
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